7Shadows Teed

I keep forcing myself to think that you will find someone you will love more,
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I sit here in the dark and contemplating on the past.
I realize how much I messed up.
I just wanted to say sorry.
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Death follows me everywhere I go.
He haunts me like a ghost trying to find its way home.
He follows me like a shadow.
Everywhere I look I see death.
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Another slips and brakes.
Another glass falls to the ground.
I tired but you didn't want it.
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I look back on what we us to do.
On how things us to be,
When people weren't trying to tear us apart.
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Nothing is what it seems anymore.
What I think one thing is it's not.

People kill my heart more and more...
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My shadows are my guardians,
My protectors.
They are my solitude.
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No one will understand how my mind works anymore.
I've lost all desire to have someone understand it completely.
I tired and now I feel so distant from him.
I messed up...
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The rain are my tears.
It sheds the pain for me that I can not,
The tears that I can not shed.
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What if there were a poem that could save a life?
would you write it?
Or would you let it fade from your mind,
Never to be remembered again?
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I look in the memoir and wonder what have we done?
What we had,
What you told me wouldn't die,
Seems to be fading...
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You leave and I feel the sadness come back.
My fears come back.

When I'm with you I forget what worries me,
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Every second you are gone I miss you.
Every time someone hurts you...
I can't even start to put my anger into words.
I'm trying to say I love you in more then those words.
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I feel caged in this world that my parents keep me in,
Away from the ones I want to be near.
These rules make my heart burn with anger,
Telling me to break them.
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Life goes on and never stops.
You watch people come and go.
Tears flow and flow,
They know no ends to which they go.
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Every scare,
Every pain,
Is written in blood.
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My love,
My passion,
Is forever his.
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I fell into my unstable state of mind.
I fell back down to the bottom.

My heart is in pieces,
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I feel so faded from everyone.
I feel like I messed up and hurt him...
Did I?
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Night settles into place and you come to mind.
It's cold and lonely tonight.
The moon is not out.
Nor are the stars.
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