Amber Swiney

Inside my happiness, there is nothing but happiness for me.
Inside my happiness, the colors are so bright and vivid and I am able to see everything clearly.
Inside my happiness, there were no dark times because in my happiness the sun always shines.
Inside my happiness, there is no pain, there is no fear and there certainly is no doubt.
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Live on.
You are not here.
And I don't feel like i am either.
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A bitter coldness,
flows through my veins.

But a fire burns,
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The tears they have run out
Don’t play stupid you know what its about.
I wanna scream, I wanna shout….
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Honestly,

tears are falling,
they never end.
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Barely now am I holding on.
Letting go completely, loosening my hands.
Feeling gravity pull me in.
Taking one last breath.
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I wanna feel, like i never have before.
I wanna heal, I want the scars to disappear.
I wanna love, I want my heart to speak her name.
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When i look at my fingers, the spaces in between,
and think how your fingers used to fit perfectly there.

I don't miss you...
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Judge...Me
Hate...Me
Crusify...Me
Kill...Me
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BROKEN BRIDGES, BROKEN ROADS:

I'm crossing broken bridges,
to travel broken roads.
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The emptiness that follows the tears,
it kills me inside.

The emptiness of not having you here,
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I'm leaving...
I'm leaving...you
I'm leaving...home
I'm leaving...myself
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Forgive yesterday.
Forget yesterday.

Forgive today.
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Innocents of the soul.
We lye broken.
We lye whole.
Others are burning.
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Leave no blood on your hands.
Shower my love down the drain.
Scrub me from under your skin.
Destroy the evidence of my existence.
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I am in a hole.
I'm losing air.
I dig my way out.
So slowly.
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Once upon a time,

I couldn't imagine living without you.
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The memory of your face.
The smell of your skin.
The touch of your hands.
Is leaving my mind.
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Looking back now,

I was falling apart.
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Today I realized it's over for good,
I am just fine without you though.

You don't know who I am,
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