Arienne Smith

The daylight which shows a thousand pictures shines upon your face
the smoothness of life shows your evervescent grace
The poems that you write for me shows for me this much [----}
and makes me light to your touch
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I wonder how a life would be if you cherished every moment
I wonder how a life would be spent just knowing
the ecaxt date when youre going to die
would you take back some of if the things you did on a certain day
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When I wake up in the morning I smell the dew
And all I do is think of you
I think about the times you make me glad to see your face
How your voice sings like an angel with such grace
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Give me a reason not to cut again
when this is all i feel within
only this pain I found
everytime I stand up I hit the ground
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So many nights fill with tears of anger and agression
so many days with the same bland expression
Finding release in the pain that I could cause myself
believing in nothing else
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Trying to find something positive to say about myself
I have to stop living on the shelf
I have to rip out of that destitute casing and live for me
not for my memories
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1 A.M in the morning and i'm thinking about you for the first time in months
and im wondering what would have become of us if we were still together
I am thinking about those moments when I had no common sense and everything came out
Those moments of love r.k.a moments of lust all those times when we thought ''I love you' meant something
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Slowly into the night you come here to me
You see the happy look on my face and you come and sit with me
You tell me you love me and all I can say is okay
You look at me and say should I go away
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Did you know I had dreams of being me
then the person I front to be
Did you know I had a life outside this world
or that i'm not your average girl
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My dear sweet friend you have a big and beautiful heart
im so happy you gave me part of it
Thank you for taking the time to let me tell you about myself
Thank you for making our connection deep
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Today I called you and wanted to know what you meant
all you want to know is how it started
So now that you know what happened you know im not addicted
i just wanted you to know the feeling
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Im afraid to love you because an unhealthy past
the memories are there but the scars are the ones that last
I wish my outcome would change
trying to love you jsut aint the same
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You come into my old decrepit life
you found out things no one else knew
You found out why im so bitter and cruel
as much as you made me do you want to know why I die inside
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The end is just some words you put at the end of a story
but in this my person is coming to and end
The end has me confused, lost in a forest of blindness, weakness and inferiorness
On a destitute island of hope
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The sounds of the thunder against my window
i'm sitting here thinking of you
The melodies we amke togther are singing in my ears
craving your body next to me I slowly drift into a dream
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I never thought I needed you until my thoughts got grim
I never thought I could love you until I looked within
I denied these certain feelings until I was half past dead
Now I cant push these thoughts out my freaking head
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I can not stress enough the time without you I spent
I spent my time with anger that slowly came and went
Wondering what i could do to feel your heart from despair
-and to get back to that place where you knew i cared
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Deep thoughts racing out of my mind as I climb into bed
Just dont know why this is bouncing through my head
I cant see why i'm thinking about some stuff right now
but its driving me insane and I feel like sreaming loud
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You sat there and told me you liked me, but now it seems like a game
everytime I see you, you act like you forgot my name
And when I find away for us to be together you seem to slip on down to where you say you dont want to be mine again
That one night is all I have to remeeber you by
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I still love you even though you did me dirty
I seem to still care even though you hurt me
I still think about you when I should be moving on
i still feel you even though you're gone
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