Ashley Joyce Forbus

Almost four years go by, baby please don't cry
These eyes are like two full wells
They are going to burst
She asks for no one to look
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Slander is a wicked serpent
I do not need to be reminded
I’m harder on myself more than you ever will be
Mistakes I have made are always right in front of me
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I am tired and I am beat
But no, I will not weep
These troubles i am greeting
This mountain that looks too steep
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My eyes are burning!
From pain and Anger
These pages keep turning
All these years and I'm still no Stronger
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She trys to escape the masks that haunt, follow, and hunt
her ever waking moves
Laughing masks, sad masks, crying and devilish masks
Masks of all sorts of every emotion you could possible think of
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I sit beside you while your sleeping
Wanting to give you everything in the world.
every promise never wanting to be broken.
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Black dress, pressed tight against my chest, it is a threat, but i need to look my best
Black veil plays merry go round with my neck, I stand on a deck while I am slowly losing my precious breaths
Black dress makes my head unbearably heavy, my breaths are too shallow; my eyes are dry and weary
But my eyes manage to still look dreary and I can still hear the faint murmurs of what is inside my chest
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Dark nights, stars are burning billions of miles away, in the hollows of the black sky. That is how she feels all the time.
Dark nights, how will she navigate her way, find her way, when all she can see in the nothingness all around her.
Dark nights, she screams at the nothingness the around her. She screams at the numbness inside her, the pains she cannot get away from, and the coldness that drowns her.
Dark nights, no one knows about the fights she fights alones, trapped inside her own self.
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Chaos
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You twisted fool
I tried to give you my heart
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Trees above her, below her, to each side of her
Fog obstructing her view, where should she be?
She cannot tell what day it is any more than she can tell what time it is
Which way should she turn?
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