Beau Bennett

I learned how to fall out of love today
As A profound silence took its place
One day I will close my eyes forever
And with eternity I'll be replaced
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Staring at pool of crimson red
The worlds unlucky now left undead
Aborted babies shriek unheard cries
Held by rancid demons upon tainted skies
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There's blood in the bath tub
From a needless mistake
There's blood on my hands
From the chances I take
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My Heart

My curse, and my treasure
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Oh please Lord, just let me go

Just make sure that I die slow
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Young lips drink deeply on the bitter waters
Of hate and suffering

These same lips choke on the stail stench
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Trying to stay in an apocaliptic coma, yet I'm pudded out by a smile
As I sleek back to seclusion
I'm spellbound by a Beauty that I simply cant't deflile
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I'm just a helpless child
And all I want is to know why
I'm lost in a sea of deprevity
Why is the only thing I want, to die
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I awoke in a different place today, not the place I know
I think I felt my soul again, some strange emotion from it's hole

I abandoned the world once, to escape from all the pain
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I suck up all the good around me
and focus it within

I try to feel something warm
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I tried to give you what was left of me, But it was not enough

I tried my hardest with the best of me, But it was not enough
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I dont know know if what Im feeling is possible
Im awash in apathetic misery
the lump of agony in my throat wont leave or disperce
crying wont cure it or even aleviate it
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(very explicet imagery used in first part please know its sarcasim and not literally ment, lol i dont want you all to think i want to do these things im just making a point)

If I took this cigerette and put it out on you
Would you love me?
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Man has only one escape
From his old self

And that is to see his true self
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I must apologize for loving you
With this, my deepest sincerity
I know that I'm beneath you
And your kiss, pure charity
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I am a begger with no sign
I'm shade without a tree
I am a sound without a voice
A visionary who cannot see
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I've been conditioned to hurt for you
Been taught to yearn for you
I've been told to feel for you
And still yet burn for you
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There once was a plain that I thought I had crossed
There once was a pain that I thought I had lost
There once was a man that I thought I could be
There once was a love that I thought wanted me
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I only want you happy
Yes, even at this cost
But every time I see you smile
I'm reminded of what I lost
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What happened to the light
That used to shine on me
What happened to the good person
That I know I'll never be
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