Taking mistaken steps too far into the future, because of
ignorance and shame is not an excuse, but reality of abuse.
Not knowing behavior patterns of youth are kept tucked
safely within and used throughout growing years to adult-
Never changing acts of childish learning or defenses,
because of just not realizing what is going on.
Being called 'little one', trying ever harder to take care
of everything and keep it in order.
Trying to recognize patterns set up in childhood is not so
easy, frustrating those who were abused very much.
(2: 31 p.m. - 3/15/95)