Chelsea Lybbert

Smoking, drinking, biting nails,
Common habits and addictions,
The ones everyone thinks of.
But what about another,
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How can I learn to forgive,
Something that broke my heart.
How can I learn to forget,
All the pain and suffering I endured.
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Depression, loneliness, pain, rejection.
The feelings of a high school student,
A student with few friends,
And no best friends.
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Every minute that passes by,
I can see the drops of blood fall,
The running river that flows down my arm,
That spreads out across my hands,
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Morning, lunch, after-school hangouts,
Long phone calls into new morning light.
Butterflies in my stomach rise to my heart,
Which beats hard through everyday and night.
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When will the pain die down,
Just enough to allow time to sleep.
When will the hurt fade,
To allow me to relax.
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The pain grows every minute,
And I grow tired of keeping it at bay.
I want the pain to flow from my arms,
I want the pain to leave my body,
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Thinking of you,
My heart beats faster,
My mind whirls,
I get lost in space,
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Too many temptations,
Too many ways,
To take my life,
To give myself pain.
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Hours of crying and worry,
Long minutes of pain and hurt.
Waiting every second for the one sign,
That shows everything is okay.
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Living a normal life,
Something I would like to do,
Something I wish would come to me.
I miss smiling and laughing,
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My family hates me,
I’m the daughter to torture,
Yelling, screaming...
Telling me I’m no good.
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I can’t help but smile,
When I’m with you,
Talking to you,
Or just thinking of you.
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Pain filling my heart,
Pain filling my soul,
Tearing through my mind,
Leaving another gaping hole.
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A searing pain stabs its way into my heart,
It grabs a hold and pulls the pain down,
The knife digs deeper and deeper,
It makes a line toward my chest,
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There's a hole burning into my heart,
A pain stabs through my soul,
An aching hurt that won't go away.
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Loving you isn't that hard,
Being with you is a blast,
Thinking of future is the hard one,
But not because it'll turn out bad.
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As soon as I am with you,
It's so easy to see,
Why I am with you,
Why I love you,
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Arguing and yelling is all we do,
Since the day I broke your heart,
I went out with you and said I love you,
But what is love anyways?
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Searching my heart for the answer,
Looking in my soul for the truth,
Wondering if this is too good to be true.
I look at you and smile,
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