Chrissie Scriven

I am through with all my memorie of all my hurt and pain because since the day that i met you, i've never been the same.
I have never really had anyone be the way with me, like what your like when we're at work, the way yu behave with me.

I never know what to say when it's just us two,
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I wonder what it feels like to live a life so wild and free,
with no worries of people hurting you, is how i would like to be.
To live my life without the pain, no man would brake my heart,
to know that if i did let my guard down, i would not be broken apart.
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You said that you were a lazy boyfriend
well to you sure, that may be,
But did those words ever get said out loud
if so it wern't from me.
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I've always said im untouchable, that no-body could break me down,
but now i lay in bed at night and cry, wondering why i am still around.
Why dont people understand me and still they never seem to care,
im felling alone all on my own with no-one around to ask me where.
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All alone with nothing to lose
vengence is sweeter, only if i choose,
A lifetime of revenge to all that done me wrong
getting hit or pushed around, this is my vengece song.
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Bird's are chirping all day long.
I sit there listening to their song,
The sun's come out, the cloud's disappear
I can't believe I'm really here.
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Government's bicker, Challenges made, war's are then fought and widowers paid,
Thousands are lost through hate and greed, government stating they have something that we need.
Heart's are broken and families mourn, soldier's are lost and soldier's are born,
War's are funded and taxes paid, river's run red where the dying have laid.
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We cannot undo the things that we've done as we lay there starring at the sun,
all we can do is try not to fall down or do the very best we can.

I'm feeling alone and im dying inside disappearing back into this place that i hide,
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Now you've got me all alone, what would you like to do?
i'm no child now, im fully grown right now it's up to you.
You've been saying now for so long now that you want me all alone,
now im stood right before you we're heading into the unknown.
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You're heart is full of sorrow
it's screaming out in pain,
You'll still feel like it tomorrow
it's just it wont feel quite the same.
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Someone is in there, deep down inside,
telling me what to do,
Destroying my sense of being, just being a pain all through.
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I thought i had someone special with whom i could dropp my wall,
but now i am sat in my bedroom crying, i guess i didnt after all.

For a while i was so happy and i thought that he was too,
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I wish i could repay you for all you've done for me,
for getting me to where i am now and just allowing me to be.
I know i didn't make it easy for you and it gets harder every day,
to live under the same roof again, i bet i still drive you insaine.
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I know this now like i knew this then,
we were never any good at just being friends,

Since the day that i met you, i knew my heart would break,
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Close you're eye's and make a wish,
i will do all that i can.
To make your every dream come true,
back to where it all began.
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To have just one more moment with you would be the only wish for me,
if the whole world was crashing down would you want to still be with me?

To feel you're hands upon my skin, your breath upon my neck,
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I wish i could tell you all the things that would help you understand,
why i had to leave you there, you must believe it wasn't planned.

I tried my best to tolerate all that was thrown at me,
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My bolts are slowly loosening, im beginning to lose my mind,
i think about you GRANDAD a majority of the time.

I walk out of the door as i go into the night,
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One heart and one mind, destroying inside,
The pain and the hurt coming out as a spurt.
Your time is now coming, your end will be through,
sooner or later i'll be killing you.
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Sooner or later they will all die,
i can promise you now that i will not cry.
My heads full of angre, my hearts full of pain,
because of you people i'll never be the same.
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