Dama Tristeza

I hate,
hate that I can't trust

I hate,
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Alone, Alone
I'm sitting at home, Alone.
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I laugh,
To pretend there's no pain.
I laugh,
To make you feel okay.
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Am I your friend,
Fighting depression?
Am I your sister,
Making a bad impression?
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Harmful
Oppressive
Next to impossible
Extremely difficult
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This is me;
I won't change.
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Why love? Why hate?
Does it last?
No, that's fate.
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I took a shot,
Or maybe two;
Something to take away this thought.
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I'm tired of wakin' up
To this same story.
Life's h*ll, I hate
But there's no glory.
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Scary
Intimate
Nerve-wracking
Causes complications
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Could it be that this is real?
Could it be that it's safe to feel
More in love than I've felt before?
'Cause each day I love you more and more.
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Indecisive about what matters,
Only because I've been shattered
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I wish, as I sat here,
Nearing midnight, you see
Just to pretend that it doesn't hurt me....
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Lust
On top of
Varying
Emotions
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Inappropriate at best

Aggravating
Mistrustful
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Scared to trust,
You’ll let me down.
Scared to believe
You need me now.
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If I become attached,
Will you leave me?
If I say, 'I love you, '
Will you hate me?
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I want to lay in bed and cry
Until there's nothing left inside.

Why does it all come back?
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Sleight of hand
Adverse
Not me
Imaginary
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I hardly know where to begin
When everything I wanted feels like sin.

Day in and day out, I’m fighting myself
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