Deana Rode

Do you care if I am happy,
And that I’m proud?
Do you like to see me smile,
And not drown in my tears?
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Glass heart
fragile and frail
beautiful and naive
do you fear to fall
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I'm sinking into the depths of my madness again
thinking of things that only bring the shadows;
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Last night I had a scare
and woke up finding it reality
That your beautiful warmth
is not with me anymore.
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Could you give me some sign
that your faith in me is strong?
Your voice is all I hear
your language is all I understand
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Dance with me by the light of the moon,
Play with me in the beach tides of noon.
Sit with me by the glow of the sun,
Run with me ‘till the day is done.
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A glass hallway with no escape
Nobody can ever get in
I can never get out
Watching the world with narrow eyes
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I know not if I can make love to you
Although I agree to sleep with you

My ideas of love are shaded with gray
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I want you to reach for me
to cry out as I dissapear...
hoping for a romantic scene
that was never going to materialize
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I want the tears to stop
I want the pain to fade
I want my death to reverse
I want my dreams to be beautiful again
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The distance is so far
yet entirely within my reach
My loneliness consumes me
even though this is a repeated scene
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Stab me with your rusty knives
I don't care
I've given up my quest for acceptance
Left my dream of peace
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Could you explain the tear in my heart
or the pain in my mind
from my confusing world
that’s flipped upside-down
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Sit in a chair
alone
People I thought were
friends
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To look at her in a glance,
She looks almost like a child;
Her short sunset hair, her tiny hands,
Her small and delicate body.
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Listen to the trees sing songs of love
Maybe then you’ll know what must be done
Can you feel the Virginia mist
Go through and take the pain of long ago
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I keep fighting a battle I'm not accustomed to;
one between my past and my present,
between my regrets and my resolutions...
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In you I thought I found the cure
to this disease I seemed to have with pretty boys
who only left me bleeding on the floor
and a broken memory of what had been..
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I shouldn't care that I'm a failure in the eyes of pretty much my entire family.

I shouldn't care that I am not good enough.
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I need to break free of this Chaos
that keeps trying to drown me alive
with sharpened raindrops, slicing my skin
leaving me bleeding into a moonless night
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