These feelings that have faded have opened up my eyes
The rage that has succumb me, the pain I have inside
I begin to understand why I hide behind these walls
Afraid of the world around me, afraid I might fall
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Why do you punish me with silence
Why do you pain me with these lies
Why do you torture me with childish games
Why do you hide in this disguise
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You'll never hear me say I love you
You'll never see me shed a tear
You'll never hear me say I care for you
You'll never see me rage with fear
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On wings of light
and breath of fire
your dreams are clouds
of cruel desire
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I want to die
by my own hand
tonight's the night
I hope you'll understand
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I'm lying here in darkness with my eyes open wide
underneath the covers as if I were trying to hide
Sorting through the thoughts that are racing through my head
listening to the voices speaking words I left unsaid
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Blue, white, orange and green
these pills I take behind the scenes
changing all the chemicals that cycle through my mind
showing me the happiness that for so long I was blind
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Crying for attention
bleeding on the floor
no one there to hear her
so she cuts herself some more
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There's no need to be afraid of me
no need to hold things back
for if you open up to me
I promise no attack
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I'll tell you what I want if you can handle the truth
pleasing everyone but me has wasted away my youth
It's time for me to take a stand and be true to myself
be true to my feelings that for so long sat on a shelf
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