Elizabeth Shadows

I hate you
I hate that you left me stand stupid for so long
I hate that you thought I could or would take it.
I hate you
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I do not believe the words I'm saying
I cry and cry
Know I'm doing the right thing
I'm doing this because of you
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I don't know
I don't know anything
If you ask me a question
I give you a blank stare
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One day I'm going to be gone
There won't be I'm sorry
There won't be I miss you
I disappeared
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I love you
I love you for you
I love you when you're with me
I love when you're vulnerable
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I wish someone would have told me it's hard
I thought everything was lovey dovey
I thought it was easy
I thought he care more
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Standing on the sidelines
watching people live their small insignificant lives
Seeing people cause
hurt and pain to others
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Kairi
Gentle, Shy, Confident, Stubborn
Relative of Ancient Lena
Lover of Corey
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I still see his face
Hear his whisper
Feel his breath in my ear
Smell his cologne left after
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</>The day is long and wasting away.
Sitting by the window wishing I were free,
Watching the ants march into their beds.
The birds chirping away,
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The world spinning
Round and round
Head whirling
Knees buckle
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I am Calm Ocean Blue on the surface
Timid and unsure
Shaky and shy
Never wanting to attract attention
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She sits waiting
For him to come
She waits
Realizing he won't
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I am nothing
How do you know I'm here?
How do you know I'm not?
How can you say I'm not?
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</>Morning
I wake dreading
Breakfast
I take a few bits and swallow
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How could you do this to me?
Why would you?
Why'd you betray me?
My trust?
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