Ellie Watts

My hand on the car door latch.
I think of opening it and jumping out.
My feet treading across a bridge.
I think of pushing myself over the railing.
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May tonight be the night that
I finally die.
I grab my razor
and cut really deep.
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I see the tears fall from your eyes once more.
I will feel the regret in my heart forever....
I know you won't believe me this time.
I know I took advantage of your trust
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as the photograph of him gets soaked by my tears
thinking back about all those years
now im all alone and sick of myslef
ever since you left ive been such a wreck.
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Blood red tears fall onto a face numbed by emotion.
How could you have done this to me?
If I stare long enough into nothingness,
I can pretend I'm in your arms.
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All I knew,
and all i believd
are crumbling images
that no longer confort me.
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my arms
soaked in blood.
my face
a distorted mess.
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Will you help me, angel from the dark?
wrap me in your black wings and take me away.
Let's fly away, with me in your arms.
Across the sky.
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I'm trapped in this hole.
I dug and stuck myself in.
Trying, trying to crawl out, I shout.
My finger scrape the sides,
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Have you ever felt like nobody cares?
Like you are invisible?
You could stand in the middle of a room,
and nobody would notice.
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if i let you
you would make me detroy myself.
in order to survive you, i must first survive myself.
i can sink no further.
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the knifes cold steel bites my wrist.
i feel the icey touch of deaths kiss.blood flows and the wind blows.
i see the ghosts of years past.
my living life is not long to last.
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Once, long ago i was an angel.
golden wings set on my back.
a silver halo over my head.
but those days are gone now.
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The blade going into my flesh
as i fell the pain i long to feel
i think of my mom
and what she will think.
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On the day and 'angel'
falls from the heavens,
it shall be over.
The end of all that exists.
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You're the one i miss.
I long for your kiss.
I hate myself.
I cry at night.
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