ESPN CHICK Poems

I look at this knife in my hand
I think about cutting over and over again
To feel real too feel the pain
Just so I can breathe
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I don't care what you may say or think
I am me and I'm not gonna change
I don't care who you are
Its my life
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I'm sitting here alone tonight
Thinking about you once again and
I don't know why
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Can you look at me and see this little girl inside
Can you see that she's hurt
She's broken and bruised by the world
With no where to go she runs and hides within herself
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Here I am all alone staring at these four walls
Wondering why your still on my mind
I'm trying to think of something or someone else besides you
I shouldn't have these feelings that I do
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You can find me hidden in a corner crying a million tears
I'm broken can't you see
When you see me in public I smile
But its not even real
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Do I need you
I know I want you
But do I really need you here with me
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Take a look at me and tell me
Do you see the lies I've been telling
Can you see that all along I've been living a lie
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I'm screaming at the top of my lungs
Why can't anybody hear me
I'm dying slowly out here all alone
Losing faith and getting weaker by the hour
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I've been hurting for a while now
And I don't know what to do anymore
After all I've been through
Feels like I'd be better if I did give in
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