Dearest One
I would not hurt you or criticise
Only realize
The pain my heart feels
...
he said he was doing it for our relationship and I wondered aloud
what relationship, there's nothing
but he just looked at me with his bland oatmeal eyes and asked
why i did not love him like he loved me
...
I said something irregular.
It slipped out in a whisper
Soft and raspy, accompanied with a box
Tied in ribbon
...
Leaves dance by, leaving behind some sorrow
Laughing in the wind, careless in their roaming
Tears flow down my mind to remember that day
Looking out my window
...
Digress to a dismal dirge
Dare to differ with defiance
Detest what's right for the sake
(of) dividends.
...
One day and counting
It spans more than twenty four
Ive only now just left you
But now im back and wanting more
...
sometimes
empty hands
claw at my throat
forcing me to breath
...
feel the air.
it is so warm and soft, like a hug.
you cannot escape it, and the truth?
you'd rather not,
...
Turn your eyes and catch your breath
Watch as he takes center stage
Oh silent world, take notice
Of this beautiful boy
...
It's a chilly morning
This December
Doesn't feel like Christmas, really
Even though it's only weeks away
...