fortunate thembekile xulu

for one last time
let me love you like it's my last day on earth, just to prove to you that i wasn't worth letting go
let me touch you so sinfully just to show you that i'm worth fantasizing about
let me surrender may body and soul to you, just so you can leave your permanent mark
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he's my secret lover, but he doesn't know it yet
the one my heart calls out to
i call him GOD'S sinfull creation
for there's no other like him
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hush! don't cry and listen
can you hear it? ...no? ... then listen closely
now can you hear it?
yes that's it
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so long
to the love i gave without care
thinking you'd love me back
not play me bad
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sorry i cheated
i did it out of spite,
hoping you would finally let go
i meant for you to catch me in the act
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why her?
what makes her so perfect?
i was the one who came first
the one who loved you the hardest
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i think its time to let go
how could i still love you after everything you have done to me
how can i still be with you knowing that you have cheated
how can i still be with you knowing that you could have impregnated her how can i?
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he's been stolen away from me
the one who was suppose to love and protect me
the one who was suppose to kiss me goodnight
now all that's left is the smell of loss
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i stopped caring when you left
the day you told her that you not loving her
screaming hateful words and shutting the door in our faces
did it please you to her tears?
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i wish i could put a gun im head
so you could no longer hurt me
so that everytime you breathe
i don't hear those hateful words in your mouth
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it's not enough
sorry won't bring you back
or take away this pain you left behind
how could you leave me
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how long
will you keep destroying me
trying to 'fix' me to perfection
when will you stop scrutinizing me
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love is war
that never seems to end
there is no hope in praying
no faith in trust
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it whispers my worse fears
taunts me in my dreams
the other voice
it hates it when i smile
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would you come back to my arms
if i sang your praises everyday
and worshipped the ground you walked on
would that make you love me like you do her
...