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I Give Up

A strain in my heart, that shattered like glass
My brain swirling around, haunted by the past
My legs feel numb, heavy and weak
I have so much to say, but my mouth will not speak
My arms are dragged, side by side,
With my head bowed down, in an attempt to hide,
My stomach churns, my skin turns pale,
Everything that's supposed to help me fails
I clench my fists tight but my eyes begin to poor,
My heart can't take a sensation so raw,
I would love to go now, away from this place,
But the pain of never seeing your face, caressing, it kidding in my hand on your cheek,
Not Giving up is a promise I just can't keep.
What's the point of all these people, in the world I'm alone,
I live in a black hole all on my own
Sometimes I want to escape but sometimesI can hide
From helpless looks and uncertain eyes
Why oh why can't you just understand that I am unwell
I'm not 'down' I'm not just feeling blue
This won't just go away
attacked by a monster that follows me night and day

Is it because you can't see it? No bandages or blood?
No wheelchair no nurse
But I'm crippled up above

With darkness, depression, pain and despair
What have I done for this? Why is this fair?
I look out the window, it's grey with rain
Even when the sun shines it feels the same
I don't know what to do I just feel like giving up
I just can't stop thinking enough is enough
Maybe some are just supposed to be like this, they way they are shaped?
But I just can't accept this degenerative fate
Where flowers don't smell and food does not taste good
Not smiling gracefully like others would
Where people celebrate the new year full of hope & glee
But I for one am dreading it... Is it just me?
When midnight comes all around is cheers
As it sit there and think about facing another year
I stay in my black hole and hide away,
With the only friend I know... Fear.

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