Jacob Andrew Jarman

a single shot whistled by
a single soldier falls and dies
a single silence shatters in
as he falls bone from skin
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You smile at me
with your tired eyes
you hold me close
your words are wise
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I look at you, a shell
a desolate memory of what you once were
the holes in your skin
fuel your demise
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The heat strikes my face
scornful, violent
the flame roars, screams
falls silent
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Consume, Conform, obey.
Don't speak.
Don't argue
Don't stray
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i slip in and out of this state
confused, shaking in my own concious
moving from hot to cold
weak to strong
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the lover lies he bites his tongue
blood flows to show his wrong
feeling the flood overpower
controlling, sour
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eyes glue, unaware
sugar coated, violent stare
'i promise peace justice
a better place'
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I was the girl with the velvet hair
the perfect smile, without a care
i was the girl you always knew
i was the girl virgin and new
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I scratch words hopelessly, at the back of my mind
think of something to say, something unkind
i pull my eyes shut to tear me from you
my hands like putty, my love like glue
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I gave you my arms
to keep you safe
I gave you my words
you fed me lies
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silenced, I try to speak but the words linger in my throat
My arms shake, I choke
my skin shivers, no hope
I close my eyes, tightly hoping for a breeze
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there are sunsets more calming
and panic more alarming
than you voice is charming
but i love you
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The wind settles
the pain fades
the dark brightens
my eyes open
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so the distance
keeps us apart
but I know
whats in my heart
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Inadequate my words
written on the glass
my eyes blind open
my breath my last
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violence of the past
lingers in my mouth
I spit it out
yet it remains
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