jade Slatyer Poems

You burst through the door
Screaming and yelling at me
What did I do this time
Please don't hurt me daddy
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Shut your mouth and listen to what I have to say,
I'm going to take you back to that one specific day.
I was laying in bed alone while listening to you and him talk on the phone.
You said, 'Well if they have the money I don't see why not,
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I'm so tired of this empty feeling
I'm so tired of being alone
I lay here staring at the ceiling
Waiting by the phone
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You can stand there and smile you can sit there and laugh
but you can't trick me I know it's a mask
You're trying to lie to me and everyone else
but why is it that you're lying to yourself?
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I have a survivalist mentality
That's a part of who I am and it won't go away
Sometimes I take a break from reality
Dreaming bigger things than what is given to me today
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Do you know what it feels like to be left behind?
Losing everyone around you in such little time.

I try not to worry since they're left in the past,
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Hard to breathe
Weird to touch
Acting normal
Think too much
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I don't know why I feel this way.
I never asked for pain, tears, or suffering.
I was normal at one point in life.
I was full of smiles, laughter, and happiness.
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They dig into your flesh
with piercing daggers of
indignation
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Bringing new meaning

to the day of the dead
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