johanna damon

Scars not seen but they are there none the less
The scars are on my heart
The questions in my mind
I wonder if he knows how bad he hurt me
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dont ask me how i feel cuz ill just say fine
dont ask me what scares me cuz ill say nothing
dont ask me to take off my mask of happiness cuz i wont
dont ask me to trust you cuz i cant
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Said he loved me
Now he don't
Told me he'd always be by my side
Well he lied
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Crashing burning tearing me up inside
Feels like i just died
Wrapped in a hole of darkness needing you by my side
I miss you want you crave you it hurts so bad i just cried
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skin on skin
touching tasting feeling you
i hear you whisper in my ear that the time is almost near
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so many thoughts tumbling in my mind
so many that i cant sleep tonight
all i can think about is him
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i think its time you know
about all the pain ive been through
you dont know how i feel
and it tears me up inside
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a hunger deep inside
i cannot hide
a want
a need
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crying screaming dying
locking all my fears inside
when people could hear me i was ignored
they just seemed bored
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You took everything I had
You broke everything I was
Like I was made of glass
Like I was made of paper
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hes been in jail for a year and 3 days
no like im counting
he says he wants to write me a letter
im scared
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im in a deep hole tryin to claw my way out im so far down that no one can hear a sound i scream
i cry
i rant and rave
untill im hoarse
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I need the sting of mortal pain to bring me back from the depths of mental hell. I'm struggling to stay the Blade it calls to me
It says go
Let go and let me handle it. You know of the serenity I give just let me take care of you.
I stare at the Blade, my hand hovers over it, then with a final triumphant shout the Blade shrieks with glee as my hand betrays my mind and, flips Him out and cuts deep
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Youre gone
i feel it in every pore
every crack in my soul
i wish i could hold you in my arms
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in the slience of the night
i feed on innocents
the sweet tart tangy taste of blood
it runs from my mouth and drips to my neck
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It calls to me deadly and seductive
No harm done just a quick slice
Just a lil blood
There it is shiny and gleaming
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hiding from the light
are creatures of the night
they twist they turn they seethe they burn
the light they spurn
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The pain it kills tears me up inside
Screw almost, hell I just died
You took all of who I am and now I can't hide
From the pain the agony deep inside
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Some
Say the eyes are the windows to the soul
But
If that is said I wonder what hides behind my
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Eyes
Full of pain haunting me seeing me
Darkness
Deep in my soul lingering feeding growing is the
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