Kay Bell

You seem to see right through me
your face is like a sin
i dreamt about you
...but i cant remember when
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Sometimes you make me wonder.
If we ever should have met.
Should I have ever held your hand.
Would I have all these regrets.
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its hurts when you look at her
i can see it in your eyes
you dont want to be with me
and this is why i cry
...

These feeling for you wont go away

and im not sure i can stand it one more day
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i've had a million conversations with you
all of them in my head
things i wish would happen
things i wish you would have said
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Sadly i still miss you
it seems its been so long
would you take me back
if i admitted i was wrong?
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tired...
of letting you down
tired...
or never being around
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An innocent mistake
no one had foreseen
finally getting his life together
5 months he had been clean
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tears caused by my frustration
for what you do to me i cant explain
thoughts of you and what isnt there
brings me a great deal of pain
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Crying for you
my heart is broken
i'll leave now
theres nothing to be spoken
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i will hold the plain white pillow
over my face until i lose all breath
i will fight, and kick, and scream
it will be a painful death
...

the sun doesnt seem so bright
and the skies not all that blue
nothing can bring a smile to my face
...not sense i lost you
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this thing pulling us apart
this thing that doesnt even really matter
destoying a friendship that was so strong
im just waiting for things to get better
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the silent denial
of the scars on my wrist
the made-up excuses
of the bruises from your fist
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memories and dreams
an image comes to my head
afraid to open my eyes
because all those things are dead
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i cant control these feelings
they're taking over me
im hurting inside
but its nothing you can see
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i see the pain underneath your smile
your trying to hold back
it almost brings tears to my eyes
as i sit and try to fake a laugh
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Following blindly
for i thought you really cared
i was only gone for a second
and i looked back but you werent there
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take a couple pills
to kill what i dont want to feel
keep myself from crying
the only way i can heal
...

A drink to ease my pain
which leads to many more
confused by this world
lying on the floor
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