krissi b'williams

im not supposed to love you
i am not supposed to care
im not supposed too live my life
wishing you were there
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this is a true story of a girl who was abused
her pride, and her will beaten outof her as her tears spill
people just stared, and gawked, thier eyes without
compassion, noone cared,
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THE DISPLAY OF EMOTIONS, FEELINGS AND SUCH
are definitely shown......
between a woman and a man.....but once you understand
it all is definitely known......
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reliviling all, that you said
rereading the words
over n over, in my head
TRYING TO UNDERSTAND? ? ? ?
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i never thought i'd find some1
who is as perfect as you
you make my life complete
in everything you do
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YOU'VE stood my side through these troubling YEARS...
WHEN we were over come by shadow n doubt, when life was so UNCLEAR
WE NEVER knew what 2morrow would bring, and we still dont even TODAY...
THROUGH ALL the defeating storms, you'd hold me n SAY...
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MEMORIZING, how the embers are flickering
each flame seems to be dancing
wood thats crackiling 4m the heat
and both it and the fire are bickering
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bcuz i know its better, i write my words to you in this letter
4 you 2 read, what i have to say....with no anger, no fights
nothing in the way, this is diffently the right way
so i can express all i have to say..to you 2day....
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Staring at the walls...at the pictures that hang there
each photo...of it all
each step of our relationship..that started, with lust, wanting and care
the last picture that is hung
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we become enemies...resistant to the words
that me life or death,4 the love in our world
we argue n we fight
but who ever comes out right
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2nite at dinner, i was being rude...making fun of the food...
i was being sarcastic and nasty
iwas talking over people, mimicking them, being sassy
and once we got home, you got the courage to confront me...
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your weapon of choice, is the insult in your voice
you've made a mass weapon out of degrading
me...into a way....every time you speak
every single bitter word that i have heard
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LIKE A METHAPHOR
IM LIKE A CROSSWORD PUZZLE JUST AWAITING
ACTUALLY FOR
YOU...TO FILL IN THE BLANKS
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HURRICANES AND TORNADOES ARE MADE 4 DESTRUCTION..
and earthquakes crumble each mans' construction
blizzards with the frost bitten snow, leave us homeless out in the cold
EARTHQUAKES, beget tremors, that seem to last 4ever
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YEARS HAVE PASSED AND I HAVE CHANGED
YET YOU THINK I AM THE SAME
well im not, im a different person
and if you want to know.............who i am
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do you know how much i love you
do you know how much i care
dont you know how much i adore you n that i will always be there
your my prince in shining armor, your my dream come true
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tis 1 memory, i shall never surrender
it will be a history i shall always remember
what the cupid of love
from far above
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have you ever heard the sound of ur own heart break
felt it crumble, literally felt the full hurt, literally felt your chest
ache....
and at your bequest, it just began to disintegrate
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im really tired of hiding, and i hope you are 2
im very tired of playing these games, so im gonna be straight with you
lovers come n go
n friends are 4ever
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every word you speak, every stare
you give
makes me seem so weak, along with every glare
never a look that says you forgive
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