Mona Adviento

Mona Adviento Poems

I
Look up
And see a vast nothingness that yawns before me.
I
...

I have brought this upon myself.
This infernal anguish that crushes my soul into the depths of despair
My sanity is banished into the winds and the tides of fate have swept me aside like a leaf.
Once again I find myself in this pit into which I knowingly cast myself
...

What shall I write?
There’s a bitter smile on my face reviewing the sentiments of yesterday.
And how utterly tragic for me to find out
I knew there was something wrong about our picture perfect story
...

Blank screen. A blip against the white washed background tinged with gray and blue
I see the letters but they are meaningless and my eyes lose focus while my thoughts roam
To a place of sunlight, where the darkness is an age away,
Where the sand between my fingers brings ecstasy as i am intoxicated by ing on my face, the violet-beating on my face, my skin crawls with rivulets of salty drops that trace the fire on my pulsating whole.
...

A dull ache that reverberates in my ribcage
Points to you- oblivious to my pain.
The silence echoes in my ears
As the vision of your solemnity flashes in my mind
...

In the labyrinth of her mind
She finds solace between
The spaces of lucidity and mundane
Where the clutter of the matters of consequence
...

Prose fails me now.
I’m trying to reach the end of a walk to remember.
A walk to remember I am trying to forget.
I write as if you’re right in front of me
...

You think you know
But never at all
the complexities of proximity.
light years between, breaths away
...

Next to you, And apart
I shudder violently against the chill
That creeps from the earth into my nostrils,
Paralyzing my lips.
...

Languidly I tarry at the shore of cast-off forever
Holding off the wave that threatens to consume the acid -fast memories
That trickle in my sleep towards the oblivion of forgetfulness.
Inducing amnesia with countless bottoms of potent liquid dear
...

On tiptoed steps, you made your way
To that sun-lit patch that makes my day
Of mirth, of life, of camaraderie
You rode on the wings of proximity
...

Cut me wide open with a paring knife
Watch me bleed under the cover of night
My dreams are filled with your lamentations
Denied by the chasm on which I reside
...

What, this dance over galaxies?
Eight million miles from the rest of the world,
Forsaking forever to bathe in stardust
In delirium over this liberty.
...

14.

it’s time.
that forbidding moment when the call comes through,
through a lighted path, straight on, without faltering
steeled against the wiles of empathy and regret
...

In a heartbeat, a lifetime dawns upon the vigilant
searching through the mire for a glimmer of crystals.
In a word, the vista changes, a realization materializes
and everything else fades away into oblivion.
...

From a distance I see you swagger into a room
And conquer the very air with your commanding presence.
This show of self-possession, effortless- with the grace of a lion
An alpha male, personified- magnificently mine.
...

It’s the end of an era.
At this shore line, looking over the sea
I gaze towards that distant past
that housed a lifetime
...

Dream of me, love, when I’m far away
In the bliss of your slumber, remember me.
One eternal moment of shared sunlight
Lives on in my heart, Immortalized.
...

I gaze with eyes misted over at the path that I have trod
And look back at the petals of forever strewn upon the road.
And I wonder with my inner light how I have chanced upon crystal
That are now embedded in my eyes for no one knows how long.
...

YOu creep upon my consciousness as i try to obliterate the memory of our short-lived affair.
I smell you in the silence-your heat suffusing through my pores, ascending to my hypothalmus.
YOu throb in the stillness as I catch glimpses of your steely eyes, softened by the moonlight.
You kissed my hand in curiosity, it's calloused texture arousing your strength
...

Mona Adviento Biography

The eldest in a brood of three, born to a lawyer and his wife on a clear summer day in April. Educated in an all-girls Catholic school (School of the Holy Spirit of Quezon City) from elementary to high school. Obtained a degree in Sports Science at the premier University of the Philippines, Diliman Obtained a degree in Nursing at the Southeast Asian College, Inc. Has been writing poetry since age 9 HAs never published any poems until now. Has a personal Legend of becoming a doctor Despite love for poetry, never desired to make writing a career, Believes making writing her bread and butter will diminish the passion she has for it. Unapologetically, A Romantic.)

The Best Poem Of Mona Adviento

Anguish Crazy

I
Look up
And see a vast nothingness that yawns before me.
I
See through
You
Are vivified in front of my eyes
By the moonlight.
And there is nothing else there but your face
In my mind,
Just your face.
Without a body
Without a spirit.
A vision of eternity that
Assumes nothing but a shapeless void.
And that is how I am inside.
I feel nothing for there is nothing there.
But me.
And my illusion.
And great expectations
Of a love that only I
I can feel.
A thousand and one resolutions
A million and one defenses that break down
At the slightest touch.
At the faintest glimpse.
Illusion
You are.
Nothing but.
Empty.
I feel so empty.
So crazy.
So ugly.
So not me.
Who am I now?
To you?
To me?
Not who I used to be.
Not perfect.
Not even human anymore.
And the fire dies
For there is nothing to feed it but smoke.
Smoke that clogs up
Every inch
Of me.
I pour out through my pores the frustrations
Of a strained effort
To revive.
To try and live up
To the many many, many illusions that I have
Created through the years, through the tears.
Game. I’m game. I am
Nothing but.
Pride. Misplaced pride that has me by the collar of my soiled shirt.
Covered with your sweat
In the heat of a moment.
Just a moment of
borrowed bliss.
wordly, unworthy.coming short of a once perfect life. Now, of lies.
Of nothing but lies.
And I lie awake at night. Memorizing the contours of your complicated façade.
Leaving me stumped by the bed.
Unknowing.
Blind to the greater needs of the world.
Aware of nothing but you. And what you are thinking. Veiled. Concealed. Elusive.
Forever a mystery a great puzzle that stupefies me. Feeling stupid.
Pathetic.
Torn. crushed. Dumb.numb.
the light again.
And darkness.
Enveloping me sweetly.
To the intoxication of sleep that serves me.
for a while
as I try to forget. The bliss. Your face. The light.
Lost in my illusions.
In my delusions. In my powdered dreams. You make me incomplete because you take part of me and leave nothing of you but your face.
Without a spirit because you are not mine.
I do not have you and shall never do.
Just too dumb to realize the awful reality that I am in for another
century’s crying fit.
Hate is too weak. Indifference does not work. I am defenseless. I am exposed. I am done.
I am not me anymore. what a riot. What a verse.
What a line
What a life.
What a lie.
A lifetime of imperfections and one moment. pathetic moment of happiness.
That falls short.
That is sooooo short.
Gone in an instant.
Goodbye.

May 2002

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