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My Thoughts Hurt Me

You held my face in your hands
You wanted to a see a smile
All that I could muster was bearing my true self
A soldier - wounded and
Fatigued by the war
Coughing up blood
Skin turning dark
Eyes brimming with tears
Tears that I held back for an eternity
You held my face in your hands
You wanted to see me smile
All that I did was show you my reality
Reality of my destiny
Child cursed with desolation
Self-loathing dripping from every fissure
I showed you how I was rotting from the inside
I showed you the places that were ravaged
Corners from which vile things seeped
With no option of recovery
I showed you how my valor made me null
Devoid of any emotions that let me feel
You held my face in your hands
You wanted to see me smile
All that I did was tell you that how,
With night fall
I hid under the bed
Covering my ears between my knees
When the hum of the city lights dimmed
That's when my demons came out to play
Keeping me awake,
Night after night
They ran rampant
Preaching of my futility
They yanked me by my hair and made me listen
They told me stories of anguish all night
They told me stories of annihilation

They told me my stories of suffering
They laughed at me
They laughed with me
They laughed at the wickedness of the world with me
They spoke of darkness
They spoke of redemption
They spoke of my wretchedness
They gave me solace
Slowly killing me from the inside
Night after night
Until I craved for their company
Night after night.
When you held my face,
My darling, my love,
I showed you why you can't love me
I showed you why I can't love
Why I will never be loved
Why I will never taste happiness
Why I will never attain peace
Why I never stop running
And I showed you,
How my thoughts hurt me.
-Nisha

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