1st January 2015 Poem by Rochelle Thomas

I think that now is the perfect time
To look back.
Everybody's raving about ‘new' things,
But I want to look back at all the things past.

What's gone is gone, they say,
But it couldn't possibly hurt to look back
In a new way.
See things differently and even change things.
There are many things I want to change.
And am going to this year
Just you watch!

I am going to shed my friends
Shake them off, like a tree getting rid of leaves
I am going to rebuild myself
And forget all the trauma and confusion this place has caused me.
I'm going to try and feel less,
My heart is stabbed every time
I think of the ones I love and miss
I won't allow myself to fall anymore
I have scabs,
Cuts and too many
Bruises
That are still bleeding
Wounds
Open and hurting terribly
From unrequited lust.
I am going to work harder
To build and better future for myself and a strong empire one day.

I can then look back at this day
I am so looking forward to now.