2night Poem by Joe Peraza

Tonight is another night of Miserere how many fights must we have? Before things get better? It’s sad the fact that you know you make me sad, but you continue to hurt me and you say it’s because you’re mad this situation is mad… I don’t know how many times I envisioned I would walk out that door, but it feels a lot further then it seems but again things anit what they seem and that saying came true to pass by the way you mistreat me, I remember how you use to tell me that you loved me now better days seem so far away I’m tried of you sitting here getting yelled at I’m alone with this pain I hold in my heart and when you leave I fall apart there is no hope for the next day.... the way I feel im n my bed wondering can anyone help me? What must I do? This anit right and my heart is in pain so I’m being proven right the dark of the night has fallen on us so that means there is no more sun light that’s how I feel I know they is something missing, lord can you help me? I know we don’t talk but I can no longer fight this fright alone I need help you know I have no family support and no one to put me in the right direction and all I do seems wrong can you forgive me for all my wrongs? I try lord I try to be strong but its so hard with no one there to even care if I do wrong tears fall from my eyes lord please I don’t want to put up with this fight lord... lord hold me… Lord what does she think? Does she see the pain in my eyes? Please lead her to you… threw you all things are possible... in2 that that day comes ill be praying for her, Jesus name I pray amen