4/16/10 Poem by Emily Reid

Life is just really complicated and I don't know what to do anymore. These past few years have been a living hell for me. I've gone through break ups, players, losing friends, deaths, cutting myself, and worst of all i lost my virginity. It's been hard having people judge me before they even got to know me just because of the person that i once was. I've made mistakes and i've fallen for the wrong kind of guys but i've learned from them and i'm not who i was. I couldn't live without music, it's what gets me by, no matter how i'm feeling. My poetry helps me to escape some of the pain inside and most of it's really dark and sad. I've loved and lost but hey, that's life. I'm not perfect, who's to say everyone is and everyone makes mistakes especially at my age. It's been tough getting by lately but i know i'll always have my family and friends to help me through it. I love the rain, it's my favorite thing in the entire world besides dogs. I wish life was easier and i wish it didn't go by so fast. The things we go through just to find the perfect person for us are usually unbareable, or so it seems. I feel like i can't wait anymore, i know he's out there though and that's all the hope i need, it's just enough to keep me going but barely.