A Capricious Soliloquy Poem by Khairul Ahsan

A Capricious Soliloquy

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I have some inherent problems with love,
Contrary to the most natural human feeling,
I seem to be quite fine and okay, up and doing,
When love that I seek doesn't surface in my viewing.

Unloved, I can soar in the sky and fly like a bird,
I can sing, I can grin, I can write, I can imagine.
Flow from the mountains like a natural stream,
And sleep peacefully, can even catch a dream.

But my problem starts when someone loves me.
My voice chokes, pen dries, imaginations disappear.
As my wings feel heavy, I cannot fly or float on air.
Grounded, I walk like a winged penguin, that's so queer!

Love and me are not like hand in glove.
But like a remarried mother, and a forlorn child,
Who wonders at random, tricked and beguiled,
By the charms of missed opportunities, stray and wild.

Love blurs my vision, stops my rhythm, makes me deaf.
It stops the music within me, makes my voice quaver.
It suddenly turns a flowing natural stream into a glacier,
The Amazon inside me becomes a Rio Hamza, the slowest river!

And so I am happy without love.
Never give me a soft whisper, I may swerve.
Never give me an affectionate look, It may unnerve
Me and my psyche, as there is no love that I truly deserve.


Dhaka
26 June 2014
Copyright reserved.

Thursday, June 26, 2014
Topic(s) of this poem: love
POET'S NOTES ABOUT THE POEM
Just some random thoughts. When a poet writes, he assumes characters that he sees around or reads about. Here is one just like that.
COMMENTS OF THE POEM
Khairul Ahsan 10 August 2014

@Leah Ayliffe Thank you very much for reading my poem and sharing your thoughts. I am truly inspired by your comment. ' I'm dependent on being independent! ' - A nice thought!

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Roseann Shawiak 26 July 2014

Khairul, this is a wonderful poem, I can understand your feelings, when there is no love I am free to be myself, be independent, and soar in any direction I want to. Yet when love is part of my life, I am grounded, it clips my wings, I feel unable to depend on myself. Love takes my freedom of choice away, because I have to respect another and their wishes. Love in a way suffocates and makes one feel undeserving of it, because all these other thoughts come upon you, stifling creativity. A begrudging of sorts because love expects too much from you.

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Khairul Ahsan 21 January 2020

Thank you, @Roseann Shawiak. You have so correctly understood and nicely summarized my poem, glad to have your precise comment.

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Khairul Ahsan 21 January 2020

You have so correctly understood and nicely summarized my poem, thank you @Roseann Shawiak.

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F J Thomas 24 July 2014

Well it didn't save the long comment so I'll just say that regardless of one's personal opinion on love they should be able to see the beauty of this piece. Very nice Khairul :)

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Khairul Ahsan 21 July 2019

I am so much inspired to read this comment of yours, although so much late! Thank you much, dear poet.

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Payal Parande 24 July 2014

oh so fascinating this piece, the words felt alive in my mind and the emotions were dancing in my heart, what else i say other how brilliant writer you are, bravo

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Khairul Ahsan 21 July 2019

Thank you for appreciating me and my poem so much!

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Vicki Acquah 19 July 2014

I said before loosen up do not put your self down find me on Google

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Khairul Ahsan 21 July 2019

Thanks for reading my poem and leaving a comment behind.

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