A Farewell From Landrey Poem by Landrey

(written 2-16-08)
are my eyes communicating to you? ?
because they ARE crying out loud.
so am i jealous of him and her? ?
i am resenting them and what’s theirs.
and i realize that freedom with one
means boundaries with others.
but though you eyes draw me in
i still must hold myself back,
because the closeness means commitment
and since your commitment’s to school
and both of us to a future.
we seem so sundered. my heart severed.
would our love limit His layout for our lives? ?
i pray more. about you.
i read Scripture. and scribble your name.
i practice the greatest of these.
but is it just on you? ?
and is it because of and for you? ?

(written 2-26-08)
i’m bursting at the seams! !
i don’t believe it’s real
chest still pounding
stomach churning
i wonder if it’s all a dream

and though everything moves fast
there we are dancing slow
and though everyone’s faces dim
i can see yours-radiant glow.


how did you blossom overnight? ?
i’ve been watching the most beautiful bud
from the beginning, day one.
and then, it’s as if what you said
changed the very way you look.
just now how wise are your eyes.
and just now how your smile is for me.
oh, beautifing blossom blossoming beauty
you open and awe me.
the intricacy. the delicacy.
you say “to Him, to Creator! !
must look and all worship.
He made you, He made me.”
-if i pick you will you wilt? ?
-if i choose you will you fade? ?
that’s not patient
that’s not kind
but oh, how my heart leapt
and oh, how my heart wept
to see you stand-in front of me.



“a(nother) response”
i strive for what’s best for you.
but as of now, i feel just like you,
“i am naive, and want to tell all.
but some things are meant to be hidden…”

i still don’t know what to say.
“you’re beautiful all outside and in.”
but in preparation of the day
you leave, i balance a pin.
“careful of that. not to much of this.”
and i long to...but nevermind
and i’ll not use rhyming word here.
i feel it would bind.

you thought I looked rosy? ?
you think I look upright or attractive? ?
you thought your heart would explode? ?
the first and second are you and the third must be me.

denied sleep and some food
i’d give more if i could
you ask where we are,
[eat my stick dust, big heavy engine! ! ]
and i concur: prayer and Christ.
He is the I AM
always there forever with care.
He loves like we should
and shows us we could
if only we talk, if only we trust.

[i feel i’m not making sense. that’s why i’m giving up. that’s why i’m your friend no longer “secret admirer.”]

i thank you, heidi, for emotional footing.
you care with concern but don’t lose all control.
a lady of the Lord you show me
a standard for those drowning in immodesty
by finding a focus on Him.

but trust Him and not me. don’t look to me. don’t answer my questions before you know what they are. each other in check, it’s what we must do. to love. to be true.

“Now those who belong to Christ Jesus have crucified the flesh with its passions and desires. If we live by the Spirit, we must also follow the Spirit. We must not become conceited, provoking one another, envying one another.”

landrey no longer. bradley to you. landrey lies dormant. bradley living anew.

“a reinterpretation of I Cor.13”
(written 2-27-08)
do i love.
do i have it.
do i do it.
languages and prophecy fail in me
and i’m only beginning to have faith.
i might donate my possessions and
possibly my body, but do i? ?
and do i show love? ?
i’ll wait on you, i’ll wait on Him.
i will care for you but allow Him, too.
help me act with proper selflessness
i forget your messups but
remember your sacrifice.
i’ll bear and believe, also hope and endure
all for the greatest of three
i’ve put aside childish things
to know and be known.


SO.


thank you for being you
thank you for accepting me
resting on Josie
blanket and cozy

but (and ugly word)
what now, what’s next? ?
we wonder and flounder
question our will against His.

[i suppress raw ecstasy
and deny the shouting desire
but i jumped a little
dance a little and
smiled again and again]

so why am i here? ?
who are you? ?
who am i talking to? ?
do you control my ALL? ?
no, i pray to Lord God.
did you steal my whole heart? ?
well no! ! that wasn’t YOU.
YOU are blank, boring, and dead
while SHE is responsive and caring
so goodbye empty space…
enjoy what you have
i’m off to see HER, to speak face to face
fun while it lasted but goodbye poemhunter.