A Little Trip Poem by Matthew Bennion

Let’s take a little trip
A little trip through my mind
Constantly twisting turning
The spiral effect of a kaleidoscope
Some days are better than most running into different ends
Could this be a bunch of trends?
Or could this be where my mind takes one more turn
I have tried explaining myself to others
But to no prevail
No one understands who or what I am
Let me ask you something
Have you ever had a really bad day?
All of you people ought to know that there is nothing as cruel as your own memory
Constantly in thought
Constantly running
Never turning off
Until one day it all just makes since
Makes since to the point it drives you madly insane
Almost like your floating a drift through the times of your past
Remembering all the ones you love
Remembering all the ones you lost
Breaking you inside
Ripping you inside and out
I wear my mask to hide my scars
I hide behind a false smile constantly laughing
Does this make me insane?
Does this make me mad?
Or did I just need someone to hold the door open for me?
I feel like I’m floating adrift through the currents of insanity
I feel as if no one is there to catch me
It’s such a strong feeling
That I’m just letting go
Just to keep falling
Falling?
My mask is becoming who I really am
I’m starting to realize that it is who I am
I am insane
I am mad
Someone didn’t hold open the door
They pushed me down
And I never got back up
Excepting my fate
Excepting who I really am
But who am I really?
Who am I truly?

©Ben Matthews