A Million Todays Poem by If you look closer you can see that my eyeliner's running XD

my hearts a lonely beat
beating for a thousand years
Painful as it is
I cant forget my fears

things gone down in the dust
lost because of you
Faded in the metalic rust
whats a girl to do?

drink and smoke just to get by
etching words into my skin
Can't get up the courage to cry
There's no use; I can't win

These games are making me sick
stop playing with my head
I've grown so old in my years
When morning comes I'll be dead

It's all the same nothing changes
not tommorrow not today
same old routine again
Im never good enough anyway

If I try to stand
you'll just trip me
If I cry again
You still won't see

You've made up your mind
about what I am
about what I'll aways be
Why do you hate me?
Why can't you except
that what you get is what you see
Why can't you except
that I'm your daughter; this IS me

I wont change
I'll be the same
I wont change
or play your game
I wont change
and pretend
I won't change
and be the 'good' friend
I won't change
and stop my foolish ways
I won't change
not in a million todays