Aaaaaaaaa5 Poem by Aiyabells 002

NOW PLAYING: Hear Me
(Lyrics written by HaveYouSeenThisGirL. Lyrics edited, rearranged, sang and played by Kathryn Donato or idolizeayel of youtube. Isn't she cool? She's my idol. *u* <3)
Author's note: Listen to the song here: http: //youtu.be/Ai3xLeDQ_9Y
or if a wattpad reader, view the video in the right side - ->


'hey there, can i passby a hundred times in front of you?
atleast that way you might notice that I exist
but then can I also smile at you
so you can smile back at me? '


I remember that video especially that song.
That's the night I sang my dedicated song for him... for Sync.



'hey hey, listen i have something to say
your smile makes me happy
your voice makes me sing, sing, sing...

i've been always looking at you from afar
trying to catch your attention but you're surrounded by many
that no matter what i do i'll always end up here looking and dreaming for you'


Wait. Bakit pine-play ito sa concert screen? Teka, anong meron? Saka bakit may kopya sila ng video na ito? Si Sync lang ang may kopya nito dahil siya lang ang kasama ko nung gabing yun nung i-record niya ito... sa cellphone niya lang ito naka-record...



unless...


'hey hey, listen i have something to say
your smile makes me happy
your voice makes me sing, sing, sing...
You're the perfect reason to be inspired
Let me dream that one day you'll also look at me the way I look at you
Because boy, let me tell you this heart says I love you
(this heart says i love youuuu) '


Bigla bigla tumayo yung lalaking nakaluhod at nakahawak sa kamay ni Blue, kinarga niya si Blue at narinig kong sinabayan niya yung pagkanta ko sa video pero sa ibang lenggwahe... kinakanta niya yung 'Hear Me' na korean song...



ngayon ko lang napagtanto... magkatono yung kanta ko at sa kantang Hear Me.
Ito ba yung dahilan kung bakit parang familiar na siya agad sakin kahit sa unang pakinig ko pa lang at kung bakit gusto ko syang pakinggan palagi kahit hindi ko maintindihan?
Kasi iba man yung language ng dalwang kanta ay parehas lang sila ng tono. And his voice, it connected me to the song.



'Unheard feelings I can't bear anymore
What should I do for you to hear them?
I think I need a loudhailer for you to hear me
To hear me what I'm saying'



Pero mas nabigla ako ng humarap sakin yung singer ng Hear Me....


'OMG.' napatakip ako ng bibig ko gamit ng aking dalwang kamay. Hindi ako makapaniwala sa taong nasa harap ko habang karga karga ang baby ko at kumakanta sa harapan ko.



'hey hey, listen i have something to say
your smile makes me happy
your voice makes me sing, sing, sing...
You're the perfect reason to be inspired
Let me dream that one day you'll also look at me the way I look at you
Because boy, let me tell you this heart says I love you
(this heart says i love youuuu) '



Unti unti ay nagpapatakan ang mga luha saking mga mata... palapit siya ng palapit sakin.


'let me tell you this heart says I love you
(this heart says i love youuuu) '

Hindi ako makagalaw sa kinatatayuan ko, iyak na iyak ako dun. I have Sync in front me, walking to me and singing along with my song in the video. He actually saved that video in his phone? I can't believe it.


'Because boy, let me tell you this heart says I love you
(this heart says i love youuuu)

Because boy, let me tell you this heart says I love you
This heart will always say that I love you.'


The video ended and so is my song for him. Tumahimik ang lahat, nakakahiya nga kasi maririnig ang hikbi ko sa sobrang katahimikan.

'Mimi, why crying? ' nagtataka si Blue habang karga karga siya ni Sync.

Wait... alam na ba ni Sync ang tungkol kay Blue?
Teka naguguluhan ako... diba sabi ni Aila fan daw siya ni MC which is actually Sync pero bakit hindi niya sinabi agad sakin? Atsaka siya ang nagyaya sakin sa concert na ito... does that mean may alam sila?


'BECAUSE GIRL, LET HIM TELL YOU HIS HEART SAYS HE LOVES YOU.
BECAUSE GIRL, LET HIM TELL YOU HIS HEART SAYS HE LOVES YOU.
BECAUSE GIRL, LET HIM TELL YOU HIS HEART SAYS HE LOVES YOU.'


Yung katahimikan ay napaltan ng chants from the audience, kinakanta nila yung part ng lyrics ng kanta ko na ini-edit nila into a view na parang sakin nila sinasabi yung lyrics. Nangunguna sa pag-chant slash pagkanta ay yung isang grupo sa may unahan, napansin ko na andun ang tatlong miyembro ng ex-Syntax Error, andun din sina manager Ree at manager Luke at si Aila andun din at nagta-thumbs up sakin at pati ang Runaway... si Kevin andun din at nakangiti sakin, encouraging me to face Sync. May alam sila... sila ang nagplano kaya nito?


'Momo, ' nabigla ako ng magsalita si Sync.


'4yrs of missing you, is that enough to be forgiven? ' ibinaba ni Sync si Blue mula sa pagkakarga niya, 'This boy here... is it ours? It wasn't a false alarm, right? You just didn't want to tell me about him.'


Hindi ako makaimik, I'm too flooded with emotions. Bigla bigla ay lumuhod siya sakin at inabot ang kamay ko, tears start to fall in his eyes too. Binitawan niya yung mic at habang nakaluhod ay hinalikan niya ang mga kamay ko at tumingala sakin, 'A second chance is what I ask. Please marry me and I promise to court you forever.'


There is no room for anger nor rejection anymore. I know that we have both suffered long enough for the wrong deeds that we have done and I also know that we have both repented on it already so... I kneel to him to reach his level and look at him in the eyes, 'This is the last chance, break my heart again and that's gonna be the end.'


Nagliwanag ang mukha niya, 'Does that mean...'

'Yes.' ngumiti ako sa kanya.


'You! ' nabigla kaming parehas kasi biglang sinuntok ni Blue si Sync sa may balikat nito pero syempre mahina lang yung kasi bata pa naman ito, 'Why you make Mimi cry? Bad, bad.'

Natawa ako kay Blue at hinigit siya palapit sakin para mayakap ko, 'Yeah, that's my baby. Protect me when daddy hurts Mimi.'

'Daddy? ' nagtataka si Blue.

Lumapit si Sync kay Blue at hinalikan ito sa noo, 'Hi Blue, I'm your daddy and I swear I won't ever hurt your mommy again.'


Matapos nun nakarinig na lang kami ng malakas na palakpakan mula sa mga audience sa concert hall, a joyous clap for a happy ending.

Hindi rin naman naglaon ay dumating na yung araw ng kasal namin ni Sync, syempre pinauna muna namin yung kasal nina ate Corrine at Zeke and the week after their wedding naman yung amin ni Sync. Sobrang balita nga sa tv yung nangyari sa concert night. It so happens pala na noon palang alam na nina Aila at ng other former SE members kung nasaan si Sync, nagstay pala ito sa Korea para magtry na kalimutan ako. He met a friend na naglead sa kanya sa Korean entertainment, naging recording artists din siya dun, kahit saan talaga habulin siya ng 'music'. He started composing songs... actually yung songs pala lahat niya ay dedicated sakin. Yung pangalan niya sa Korean music industry is 'MC' because it stands for my name's initials Momoxhien Clarkson. Then yung pinakanaging hit niyang song ay yung Hear Me, which was actually my song I dedicated to him a long time ago and apparently he just translated it into Korean and he changed the 'boy' and 'he' parts of the lyrics to 'Girl' and 'she'. Kaya pala sikat din siya sa Pinas kasi nga diba former singer rin naman siya sa bansa? They all tried to kept his comeback here in the Philippines as a secret to me, hindi sila nagcommercial ni naglagay ng mga posters ng itsura ni Sync sa pagbalik ko. All was planned. Ni hindi nga nila ito ininterview sa tv para maiwasan na makita ko pati nga poster ng albums niya ay nakatalikod siya para daw masurpresa nga ako sa planong nakalaan para sakin nung concert night na yun. Sinadya pala nilang kunin si Blue sakin nun nung nakikipagusap ako kay Aila sa backstage para ma-i-lead daw nila ako papuntang stage ng concert hall.


Haaay. In the end talaga, no matter what, love will lead you to where you should be.


'Momoxhien Clarkson, ' humarap sakin si Sync as he reaches for my hand and he slowly put the ring on my finger, 'I give you this ring, wear it with love and joy. I choose you to be my wife, to have and to hold from this day forward for better or for worse, for richer for poorer, in sickness and in health, to love and to cherish as long as we both shall live.'


Napangiti ako, gusto kong umiyak dahil sa saya pero that will ruin the make up. Pero masayang masaya talaga ako... I know that today is not a dream anymore, and I don't intend to dream nor escape this reality because finally my reality is better than my dreams.


'Sync Mnemosyne, ' it's now my turn to reach for his hand and put the ring on his finger, 'I give you this ring, wear it with love and joy. I choose you to be my husband: to have and to hold, from this day forward. For better, for worse, for richer for poorer; in sickness and in health; to have and to cherish, as long as we both shall live. And hereto, I pledge you my faithfulness to show to you the same kind of love as Christ showed the Church when He died for her, and to love you as a part of myself because in His sight we shall be one.'


And as the priest announces, he kisses his bride... he kisses Mrs. Momoxhien C. Mnemosyne. And I would no longer fear the day Blue Mnemosyne will asks me who his father is because I now have my answer, Sync Mnemosyne.


After all those pains is happiness that can't be replaced.
They say when everything is not going right yet, it's not yet the ending. So today everything is already going right but I know that still, this is not the ending yet for our story just started. But no matter what circumstance we're gonna face in the future, as long as I have Sync and Blue with me, I would be ready to face anything.

My feelings finally reached the person that should hear them. I am no longer voiceless.



***

'Happiness sometimes is not for everyone for as someone smiles, there will always be another someone weeping for those smiles. In order to have a balance in this world, one must suffer as one is happy.'

- KEVIN SY'S UNHEARD VOICE -

'Hindi ka papasok sa loob? ' tanong sakin ni Denver.
'Hindi na.'
'Invited ka naman sa kasal ah? ' nasa may tapat lang kasi kami ng pinto ng simbahan na nakasarado as the ceremony proceeds. Nakaupo kami dun sa mga 3-step stairs at naninigarilyo.

'So? ' yun lang sinabi ko sabay hithit ko sa sigarilyo.
'Pa-so so ka pa dyan, sipain kita diyan eh.'
'Bibig mo, linisin mo nga. Nasa tapat ka ng simbahan tapos sasabihan mo akong sisipain mo ako. Magtino ka nga, makasalanan ka na masyado Denver.' pang-aasar ko dito.
'Sus, nagsalita ang naninigarilyo dyan sa tapat ng simbahan.'

Kumunot noo ko, 'Kelan pa naging kasalanan paninigarilyo? Tantanan mo nga ako, baluga ka talaga.'

'Abnormal, ' inagaw niya sakin yung sigarilyo sa bibig ko at tinapon sa sahig at inapakan.

'Hoy! Bastos 'to ah, bakit mo inapakan! Anak ng! '
'Dude, you don't used to like smoking so wag kang trying hard.'
'Trying hard mo mukha mo, I now smoke! '
'Well yeah, para ikalma yang nararamdaman mo? Dinadaan mo sa paninigarilyo? Dude, masama sayo yan. Mabuti pa mag-inom na lang tayo! ' inabot niya ang braso ko at pilit akong tinayo at kinaladkad paalis sa may simbahan.

'Ulol, manigarilyo at uminom parehas lang yun! '
'Okay lang yan, minsan lang tayo iinom! Itigil mo na yang paninigarilyo, it won't help! Magpakalunod na lang tayo ngayon! Wuuu! Inuman time pare! ' pasigaw sigaw pang sabi ni Denver.


Sinapak ko nga ito dahil ang ingay, 'Manahimik ka nga, ang lakas ng boses mo kita mong may seremonyas dun sa loob ng simbahan! '

'Eh malayo nanaman tayo eh! ' sabagay, nakalapit na kami sa kotse ni Denver at medyo malayo na nga sa simbahan.

'Tara na dude! ' binitawan niya na braso ko at sumakay na sa kotse niya, sasakay na rin ako sa may passenger's seat pero bago ako tuluyang pumasok ay lumingon muli ako sa may simbahan...

4yrs ago, I fell inlove with a girl and up until now nothing changed, I'm still inlove with her.


'Congratulations, Momo. I wish you happiness, ' sabay sakay ko sa kotse ni Denver. I guess she's never meant to be mine and it hurts a lot.

Now that she's happily married and with a happy family with their baby boy, maybe it's time for me to remove all hopes and just move on.



Mag-iinom? Maybe that'll help me drown my feelings for her.
I want to drown those feelings... those feelings I know will remain forever....




...Voiceless.
No one will care to listen.