Acting Properly Poem by Eman Awad

I couldn't believe it was you,
you who loved me like no one did.
Telling every one we are through,
and that you had to put the end.
You never loved me one day,
that was the most original of all.
I was the one so swept away,
and i'm the one to take the fall.
Lier, that's what you are,
you planned to led me on to this.
A dream is what i was to you so far,
the one you loved and the one you missed.
I'll try to be strong,
and collect the ashes of my heart.
I know where i belong,
but acting till then is the hardest part.
I have to be another girl,
some one who never care for what you do.
I'm sane never in a whirl,
i'm better than to ever care for you.
I'll pass you by,
i'll tell every one i'm fine.
I'll never cry,
i'll tell them you aren't mine.
My tears won't fall,
not for you they will.
Your name i won't call,
my life won't be hell.
But the hardest part is to,
pass you by without feeling the pain.
And to smile and laugh around you,
and most of all to be sane..
It's hard to end what's in my heart,
another heart if it ever ran into yours.
It's hard to go back to the line of start,
i'm fine and nothing on my mind of course.
It's impossible not only hard i know,
but you are the one to start this endless war.
I'll cry and cry and my pain will grow,
but not in your presence i'll open that door.
And at the very end i'll win,
for i loved truely to be hurt and broken.
For the sake of the pain within,
you'll be hurt alone and no words will be spoken.
I'll act till one day,
i'll wake up not to find you in my heart and mind.
Till then i will pray,
to act properly not to show what i really hide..