@ Ad Diction Poem by Jordan Legaspi

Addiction

...notice...

I tried cigarette
to be entertained- the smoke
neither steak nor pack
is not enough- chain smoker

I tried liquor
to make a hitch- the spirit
neither glass nor bottle
is not enough- heavy drunker

I tried sleep
to let leave temporarily- the stress
neither dream nor nightmare
is not enough- the okay state

I tried you- the word
the uncomfortable truth
for you to hear my feelings
the love and what is not
the conflict between head and heart

I tried what is best and what is good
to start all over again
neither to be right nor to be wrong
is not enough- to forgive my self

...projection...

I tried- God knows I really tried
to be me- the clown in tears
on the stage of confusion- lust
behind the curtain of guilt- addiction
before the audience of judgment- fear

...need...

Who am I?
What am I?
Where am I going?
How am I supposed to live life?
Why me?


Note:
Dumaguete City, Negros Oriental, Philippines.2008