Afraid Of What Poem by Aric Beers

Afraid Of What



How shocked would you be
If you learned what scared me
Would you be surprised by my fear
Would you laugh so hard you shed a tear
I wouldn't be surprised if you did
I wouldn't blame you for laughing at what I hid
For the thing a fear is somewhat odd
I'm afraid of the mercy of God
I'm scared I won't get what I deserve
Won't be punished for those years as a perve
I'll be forgiven for my violence and hate
And I'll get in through the pearly gate
Don't get my wrong I love His grace
But part of me knows I haven't finished the race
He'll forgive and forget and I'll do it again
I'll fail once more, twice, even ten
I don't want to sin as much as I do
And I certain don't want each fall to be new
Mistakes or success, I don't want Him to forget
Rewarded or punished I don't want to escape what I get

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Somehow I've come to fear the thought of mercy, scared that even after I'm forgiven I'll still mess up. I'm not saying I'm completely horrible, just that I want to receive all that I deserve, both good and bad.
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