Alone Poem by Munashe Rupazo

Sometimes when I’m sitting
I just want to sit in the silence
And absorb the tranquility.
I want to close my eyes
And be condensed in the attention.
To be nowhere yet somewhere.
I want to live in the absent
And have no feelings
That when I’m hit
It just passes through me.
When I open my eyes
I want to see nothing but white;
White walls and white birds.
I want to touch yet so far
Want to reach out yet close.
I want to be there were it sounds
And disappear when it hunts.
To shield in love confined,
As my belly fumbles in expectation.
I want to hide in my memories,
When tears fall and die upon my lips.
Just to see the goodness of hope
I will survive to see tomorrow.
I want to lie down
And close my eyes again.
I want to remember it all and smile.
For I know once bitten twice shy
But rather, to shy away
Before it all happens.