Alone Poem by Athena Macknight

Why did this happen to me?
Blood runs from my body
pain follows hurt
follows sadness
i thought when i was little hurting my knee hurt the most
as i grew up my heart broke many times
i thought that hurt
i've been raped
i've been beaten
i've been used
and abused
but nothing hurt more than the day i had to say
i'm not pregnant anymore
blood ran down my leg
chunks of clotted blood runs out
i thought i was just having my period
i wasn't really pregnant
but i was wrong i lost my child and it's all my fault
i can't sleep
can't eat
it haunts my very memory
he tries to help and make it go away
make me feel better
and make the scary things disappear
but it's not that easy and i can't do it alone