Always Poem by Stephanie Arroyo

he’s always in my heart
and 24/7 on my mind
i cant get him to understand
that hes just the one that i want
im not attractive
and certainly not fun
no guy wants me cause they dont know
they all think im mean
and they all think im tough
little do they know im not all that much
i have an attitude but i also have a heart
i can be the sweetest girl
if you had tried to get to know me from the first start
if you chat me up
and throw a question here or there
youll see im not so bad
but im sure you still wont care
you’ll fill my head with questions
and you’ll say you understand
you think i dont hear when you walk away and say what you say

People think that i just wanna be mean
that its all i want to do
but its not
i wanna show my emotions
i wanna let everyone know who i am
who i can be
who i used to be
but i know that i wont be accepted
my friends will shake their head in dismay
they’ll put up a hand to anything i have to say
they say they love me for me
but how can they say that when they dont even know ME?
i wish they’d tell the truth
and tell me why
i need to know
its like a craving for chocolate
i have to need to know what i can do
why they dont even bother to ask if im okay
or even bother to listen when they do......