Am I Still Alive? Poem by Angela34 Jackson

Am I still alive? I wonder sometimes. I feel nothing, and see nothing.hours and days and weeks and months all seem the same. I'm like a zombie now. It feels as if the whole world has stopped, I feel like I'm the only one left on this giant earth. People talk but I hear nothing.Different sounds and avtivities are going on around me but I don't notice. all the hurt has blocked everything out around me. when you turned your back on me my life and world ended.what day is it? i dont remember.when is the last tie i was happy and smiled? the last time i spnt time with you. now i just don't feel a thing except hurt, lost, and empty. i ask God all day and night; what do i do? it hurts to much to think of you and wonder how did i screw up to loose you. i wonder, have i lost you forever? will i ever see you again? will you ever forgive me? will you ever come back to me? without you i'm as good as dead.