An Addict For My Moms Love Poem by Shilesha Johnson

I don’t know what it’s like for an addict
To crave for something so desperately
Knowing that you can’t have it
Knowing just what you’re about to do
But it’s something about this drug that makes you choose
Something that makes you choose coldheartingly
Something that makes u select this drug over your own family
But then again I might
Know what some of that is like
To crave for something o so much
To want something so bad
You could never get enough
Yup I know that feeling
Because I desperately want my mothers love
I desperately yearn to feel her gentle touch
And I know that I can't ask this
But shes the only one to fill the voidness
im so close i can almost grasp it
But the odds of that happening is like magic
And I know there’s know way around it
I know just what I’m doing
Even while i am wrongly choosing

I never stop
Because I fene for it
I crave for it
I think about it a lot
i wake up in the middle of the night tossing and turning
the thought of just having it
leaves my insides burning
the thought most times consumes me
but I know that she's the only one that could soothe me
because of the hold it has on me
so now i guess i can see
I now know how an addict feels
It's just Something you can’t control
Something hard to heal
and it's real
And I’ve been an addict all my life
Is that a crime?
I have a confession that’s a must
I’m an addict for my moms love