Atonement Poem by Kristina Louisa Carr

Shadows are comforting companions quiet and gentle
Reflecting on my actions nothing appears to be accidental
Surrounded by darkness or a very dim light I am free
Admitting to my true feelings I make you the trustee

You said you envisioned a shadow above your head
Now you know it was me and just like a dark threat
In my room when everything turns to grey and stone
It is you I seek out and to you I truly wish to atone

I want to apologize for everything that I will do wrong
For not being there when you need me and for being gone
I cheated myself pretending that I dont need you at all
Now I wish I could take it back and stay for the long haul

Please believe that you are the only one that I ever needed
All else fades in the shade and nothing important preceded
Forgive me for not being by your side every day of the year
I take full responsibility for leaving and my sorrow is severe

Being sorry is probably not enough for you but please know
I can still feel you every second of the day from head to toe
I am begging you to release my free will and letting me forget
But I guess that wouldn't be fair to you so I remain in your debt

I'm not sure if I ever get closure with you and come to an end
But to you I like to make amends and it is my love I apprehend
I hope that you're o.k. and your heart does not bleed like mine
Knowing that I deserve this I'm saying sorry again and resign

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