Awake Poem by Audrey O'shea

When your awake, and find that nothing is there,
That you knew this day would come, but yet you have nothing to fear.
You've adapted so well, to the curves life throws,
An inevitable hell, as the realization grows.
Just stop, focus and breathe,
Over imaginary stones I hop, this is just make believe.
I've come to a fork, which way do I go?
I set this ball in motion, but I'm hesitating, I know.
I wanted this, your world to fall apart, so I can swoop in and kiss, you back together for a restart.
But now I'm unsure, I want your honesty so bad,
This doubt I need to cure, the indecision is making me so mad.
The pieces are starting to fall, how do I know which place to put them, what if I completely ruin this and it's not to me you call, then I'd given up everything I have now and have to start from scratch and rehem. Oh what should I do? Stay with the life I have now, or give it up to try a new, my mind always focuses on you, and the way you make my heart bow, but the people I would hurt if I say I'm through, oh I just don't know how. I'm mostly content, not exactly in bliss, it's like the life I'm living now is just on rent, that this, I cannot miss, but do I jump? Do I take that risk? I need answers, I need signs, why do I feel so completely blind. I've noticed every coincidence, theres a million between u and me, u can't fake this exsistance, this pull for our souls to be