'Behind Closed Doors' Poem by Chesco Torres

The dinners and the movies the Walks are all reminders. I'm searching for my love I look but I can't find her. I start thinking to myself I'm like f**k it I cant have it. then I come back to my senses I'm like bull s**t cause I had it. Like a wise man had once told u can't win if scared too loose. But the bad thing is that I realized when I heard the breaking news. My homie comes and tells me I'm sorry bro she's getting married. I'm like aint even tripin love aint dead until its burried. So before u throw ur deuces I'm a give this invitation. No chocolates no flowers just good toughts and meditation. I'm a take u to a spot, t I like to call it back in time. When we would stay together we where partners against crime. In high school it was a blast tell me something we didn't do. In every special memory I was there and so where you. When ever we where bored we would drive just wasting gas. U weren't a fan of the ditching but with me u would skip class. We told people we were friends they all tought that we where more. And me not knowing how to tell u how I felt behind close doors. I'm just hoping and I'm praying up above its not too late. Cause Gods places heavy burden on the ones that take the weight. My hearts telling me do it and that's the only thing I trust. Cause what we seek then we shall find and what we flee will flee from us. I dont know what he can offer but I doubt is more than me. Cause I have our prize possetion, our bond and history. I wont talk about him, cause I respect the kid. If he got you to say yes, that me means something good he did. But in life I Iearned to never quit that a last chance what you take. Out of all the times I messed up baby ur my worst mistake. All the money that I wasted on u and still with no regrets. We where the realiest people out we were symbols for the west. And its not time to finish we can still stunt for a while. On my knees I'm begging please baby don't walk down that ile. Have u seen something this real have u seen this action lately. I need u in this world cause every thug out needs a lady.