Broken Poem by Fernando Alvarez

I'll sit in a corner
Dark as night
Crying, Bleeding
Not being able to fight
I'll paint you a picture
With blood from my wrist
I'll show you what it's lie
To not be missed
I'll write you a poem
Showing words of my pain
I'll invite you into my thoughts
Of suicide filling my brain
I'll write you a song
From memories of my childhood
Letting you hear my scream
Are you scared to see, you should
All these things
That I'll do
I'll never share
because my fear is you
I'll keep pretending
To be something I'm not
If you don't like who I am
Call me names, give it your best shot
Now tell me
Are you scared to see
All my feelings
Of the real me
I bet you are
But I don't care
Say what you want
I still won't share
Your words sting
Like daggers in my eyes
And every time I cry
My mind feeds me more lies

To end my story
I'll tell you one thing
My death is my music
And now I begin to sing
I've been walking now
For over an hour
In the pouring rain
just thinking of you
The lightning strikes
and my heart beats faster
The stars come out
and I wish you were here
The moon looks down
And sings a song
The wind pushes me forward
and I glow dimly
You're so far away
How could I expect
you can't know my love
It's so strong
One day you will know
when my love exceeds my fears
but until then my hair is wet
and I shake in the cold
just waiting for you.
My little corner of hell
all on its own
its right there to tear me down
it has always bit at my ankles
but now its taken a piece
of my existence
a piece of me
my little corner of hell
visits often
I try not to close my eyes
for they never will reopen
I whisper words
for I fear screaming
you cant hear me
I can see you clearly
please don't call my name
I don't want to look back
please don't remember
the things I've said
just remember me being happy
my little corner of hell
eats me alive
feeding from my soul
I thrive to survive
holding onto fragmented memories
of you and I
life is horrible
right about now
I fear my resurrection
in my little corner of hell