Broken Wing & All Poem by Natalie Nicole Story

I thought this would get easier
I've only known you a while
not more than a nano second
in the grand scheme's hooray

So why is it not any easier than day one
why is it getting harder
to see the light, the fun
why is it stranger feeling
if I think too hard I'm left reeling?

Every morning I wake up
You are there
every night when I lay down
to sleep and my prayers
You are there

What is the lesson here?
What am I to learn
am I supposed to take a leap
of faith
or turn
and watch my dreams burn

Am I supposed to keep on waiting
and if so, what for
I am trusting in your words
that gave meaning & more
to my heart & my soul
they said they adore

So what happens if
or when this
or should you
timing runs amiss

So what do I do if
and if she does this
or he does this
and our timing just hits

What do I do love
wait on you
I've waiting my whole life through
so a few weeks is nothing?
right? wrong!
it's everything
it's debilitating
it's torture on a mind…
my sweet soul

I'd thought I'd finally gotten it
to find it stolen away, yet again
such a nasty little sin

Before this I'd been fine
well ok
well I'd been in love
well with my son
but I loved at least
now it's past, it's peaked

And I feel my self coming back, back down
closer & closer
to that dirty, ceiling of limitations
called the ground.

Ugh no…I'd waited so long
to get off
this filthy subcontanious ground
no no no I won't land
ok, I'll just push off
& then I'll fly again

I hope this works
I truly do
because I'd rather
love & live it with you
but I refuse to go back
to the chains & the balls
I'm going to fly, broken wing & all.