Can'T Let Go.... Poem by Emma Jane Rae

id do anything to see your grinning face,
in seconds your life was took away,
such a shame, such a waste,
ill never forget that phonecall,
i recieved that sunday,
to tell me my best friend had died,
i dropped to the floor,
and i cried and cried,
i drove for 4and a half hours to get home,
even with family support,
ive never felt more alone,
i layed in bed at night scared to shut my eyes,
i believed if i stayed awake,
i wouldn't have to say goodbye,
i feel so angry and bitter inside,
why did my best friend have to die?
i went to your funeral,
so many people there,
i'll awlays treasure those moments,
that we got to share,
i went to where you ashes were scattered,
i'm fallin apart my life is in tatters,
i sat on the grass and sobbed my heart out,
i told you things thatonly you know,
and i know you were listening throughout,
if i close my eyes i can still see you smile,
i'll never let go,
i'm still in denial,
i fell bad coz i can't say goodbye,
it couldnt have been your time to go,
why was it my best friend that had to die? !