Caroline I'm So, So, Sorry It's Happened Again Poem by James McLain

For over ten year's I have kept watch over you.
Broken promises, one sad good bye for all of those
three day's I saw you.
Many mistakes have been made.
I was your age when for a year and a half I was placed
in Camp-E-How-kee.
Situated in Hernando county where you were born and live.
Standing then in the woods alone.
Surrounded by tree's without bushes to hide my tears.
I went through puberty there not understanding what I was
going through and the few councillors whom tried, well
they had motive's that we were to young to have.

I'm the reason you didn't stay.
Everyday
I dream of how perfect your life would be
if I were there.
You needed that shield to protect you against those thing's
that in a normal family would never have happened.

Know that I have been harmed every bit as much as you.
A few harmed me knowing that it would harm you.
Know that deep in my heart that I even now again will try
to regain possession of you.
Being blood and bonded as blood we are one when we did.

No other man can take my place, remember those that your mother
brought around were there to drink and have sex with her.
You've seen all of this already nothing new but waking up to
another day of the unknown.
Thing's soon will change a permanent change mum has used up
all her chances and she has run her self destructive course.
For there's nothing I want more in this world than to just be
the father to daddies little girl.
O.K.