Category Poem by Katerina Val

Remember
how to cry
when you dropped the last grip of relief
decimated every hole where you could ever hide
so now, try desperately to remember
to believe
that you can cry
that you have the right to die
death's not a gift
even for death
you have to fight

Remember
how to fight
how to put diamonds categorized
inside the dust
how to discriminate
even the stars
how to wreck
the light
how to destroy
time
by turning it into an unpalatable joy
flavorless, tasteless, meaningless
into a mute colorless noise
categorize the light
why don't you give a name to the undefined?

Why don't you try
to dissolve every concrete lie
lie
LIE
and once again
put the diamonds back in line
categorize

Why don't you try
to set freedom in their pride
instead of putting names
and colors
and definitions
to their fight?
depressed
confessed
caressed
mad and sick
scared, phobias
alcoholic
to what death should bring
drunk
in their phobias
so why don't you define
their endless cry?

Define
Their cry
I dare you
To try
Death is not a given right
Diamonds are made to be undefined
categorized
you keep them categorized
don't try to name the light
or change the smell
the way you can taste the night
the repulsive smell
of deadly covered lies

Don't make choices
don't define
when you are not enough
not to even try
when you don't remember
how to even cry
not with a handful palpable tears
but buy putting your heart inside
the desperation in every single cry.