Caught In Between All Wishful Poem by Alan Kabanshi

I never pictured falling down looking for sympathy
Caught in between all wishful, wondering what led to this path
Trying to find anything ideal that I can believe in
Because all I wish for is now caught in between all wishful

When you reveal me, I discovered a better half
To my relief I saw the dawn coming to break
Found my way, but how much will you give in?
Am lost, not even sure what we are fighting
When ghosts of my nightmares come I can’t keep awake
Help me understand, what it’s for that am going through

I feel trampled upon
like a heavy load that festers and then stink
How unexpected that am judged by feelings
Over doubts and questions misinterpreted as selfish dealings
I am viewed through reflections of opinions,
Sometimes I smile but mostly am left injured in tears
I cry endless nights in torments infertile to my understanding
Your judgment leaves me caught in between all wishful,
For things I don’t want to relieve in

Criticized am left to collapse between the gap of my dreams
With a loud fallout that no one hears my screams
That even my thoughts can no longer hear my heart beat
I am made to limp and craw so I may yield to a leap of joy
Than living caught in between all wishful

2011