Changes....('For' 'Just' Once.) Poem by Gee Cii Schnider

For once this house feels not like a home.
For once blood feels unconnected.
Just once I thought it would be happiness.
For once I feel so empty but not cold.
For once I feel so lonely while smiles stared.
Just once the floor was not creeking up'bove.
For once I sufficate in the ice.
For once this black and white spread from the picture.
Just once I thought I would be happy.
For once it wasn't from my enemy.
For once I felt guilty for not living normally.
This 'Just and For once'
are going to last a long time......

27 April 2008